sometimes things are a certain way and theres nothing you can do about it. im sorry that that person is in a fucked up situtation, but sometimes they just wont leave it. its not that they cant, but they just wont. im sorry that things havent gone the way you wanted them to go since you finished school, im sorry that you’re stuck working at your current job until you come home, but its not just you its allot of people. if you dont like that job then look for somthing in the area temporary until you come home, its not like the check is worth the stress you have to endure. but thats just my opinion, you do whatever you feel you have to do, but when you throw a fit like the one you just did and always tell me to just “nevermind dont come see me.” thats so far gone, we never get to see eachother and just because you get mad at me you have to push the limit and do what you just did. i Love you and i always try and support you, but if you make excuses when im telling you my opinion for other people that are basically working you like a slave, then theres nothing more i can do. i do my best to just go with it. to just bite my tounge and just listen, but at least meet me halfway please, dont always turn the tales and make me seem to be the bad guy when this is neither of our faults, but since you wont tell the person who causes all this anything, i guess im the one you take out all that frustration out on. whatever i guess, i cant act like this is new
i love her, she makes me happy and i see myself with her, but on days like these i just want her to know that she is one of the strongest people i know. she is the one person that i trust, and that i will never want to hurt her, and i never want her to hurt herself. i know that she is the one person that i want to be with because i have been doing everything i can to give us a future together because i want to make her happy, she is amazing, just last week she made me an anniversary gift that i absolutely love, it was the best present i have ever received because she put her heart into it, she made it and it was OUR story, of how far we have come. long post short, I Love You, and in a few short months we will live together, and i hope in a few years you will be walking towards me in your white dress and we can start our lives together.
Why do i always think i will be free from that fucken mistake. i always think that maybe, just maybe she could just go away. i do everything i can to try and fix it and fix it and no. Idk why that name always has to cause an argument. Well idk what more i can do, i know she will never forget it and im not asking her to, i just wish all the things i did over the past few years could possibly lighten that memory. im just venting, nothing serious but damn i dont wish i could change life, i just wish there werent certain memories that were embetted in the history of my relationship, that when the name is brought up that it causes tension
Seriously I thought a relationship was supposed to be 50/50 but it seems that although I fucked up in the past I have lost all opinions. I never asked you to not do something, I trusted you and although I didn’t trust anyone else I never asked you to not do something, Until tonight tonight I simply asked that you stay home because I didn’t feel comfortable with you bin in the same place as your ex. Could you honor that? No you did everything to try and go and make every excuse to go. What kind of Fucken respect is that. Them you act like its my fault. Fuck this if you have the right to voice your opinion then why don’t I. Wtf is so god damn important that the one thing I ask was so Fucken difficult. Maybe you’re right maybe we shouldn’t be together. Maybe we should just be a memory. I love you to death but you need to understand that although everyone else thinks I have ice in my veins I do have feelings, and you hurt them All tonight. But all you cared about was that I ruined your day. Thanks a lot.